Apologies

After reading back on some past entries that I wrote, especially the most recent one, I have the overwhelming urge to apologize. I realized just how whiney I sound when talking about my job. I guess this blog is a good outlet for it, but I almost feel that I went overboard. I know I'm not the only one who has had to work in a cruddy work environment. I should just be thankful to even have a job at this point, in this economy!!

Honestly, despite the crappy things with this job, or maybe thanks to these crappy things, I'm leaving it a better and more professional person. My only regret is not having the guts to stand up against those who pulled certain tricks when I knew in both my heart and my head that they were wrong. I remember one incident in particular, all I could do was stand there and smile, as if I was completely satisfied with the resolution presented to me....but really, my stomach was in a knot creeping it's way to my throat where I feared if I opened my mouth I'd spur off word vomit that might lead to my firing....so I guess it's a good thing I didn't say anything? I don't know. Hindsight is always 20/20 and I'm learning to let go of these incidents and regrets over time. When all is said and done, I can't deny that the trials and tribulations at this job, and my ability to remain professional 99.7% of the time will pay off down the road (karma, perhaps?). Most of all, lessons were learned that will stick with me for life.